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[Jun. 26th, 2005|01:26 am] |
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hmm don't know why i'm still up or what made me log on lj again or event post this meaningless sentence. |
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[May. 20th, 2005|12:59 am] |
je suis tres fatigue |
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[Mar. 29th, 2005|08:40 pm] |
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| | on your porch-the format | ] |
well, i sure haven't written or been on here for a while. of course i'm now using this as a way to procrastinate, because damnit i'm back at school. how did spring break go by so fast? oh probably because i hadn't to go on a forced family outing to washington D.C. for almost all the week. gah nevermind i shouldn't be complaining, i mean it was awesome seeing the monuments and capitol building and using the metro, but a person can only take so much of museums. did anyone know there are something like 19 filpin' smithsonian buildings!! no joke. anyway that actually wasn't so bad, just really tiring because we tried to cram in sooo much touristy stuff every single freaking day. it was really sweet though because i saw robert jones on his first day of giving ppl tours at the capitol. that was kinda surreal... hmm what else... err i hate it when i forget what i just wanted to say. oh well |
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[Feb. 13th, 2005|07:11 pm] |
It was the best of times, it was the worst of times.
It was the summer of joy, it was the fall of sorrow.
It was the season of New Life, it was the season of Death.
It was the age of discovery, it was the age of loss.
It was the height of faith, it was the height of disbelief.
It was a time of laughing, it was a time of crying.
We had almost all we could ever want, we had nothing to satisfy our hunger.
He surrounded us in spirit, he enveloped us with his absence.
His pain was gone, but ours was not. |
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| "You are really smooth!" (me yelling that really loudly to the utter embarasment of katie and samie) |
[Feb. 12th, 2005|09:12 pm] |
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| | blue eyes | ] |
hoo hum
-new favorite hobbie, getting my picture taken next to creepy manacins in stores (sp how the hell do you spell that anyway)
-be wary of creepy old guys at movies who laugh at random things and look sideways at you from the row in front of you when they chuckle---gah katie he gave me such bad vibes!
-sooo tired right now, from skiing four hours today even though there isn't any stupid snow and it was RAINING up on the mountain! i just don't understand the weather at all....
-feel kind of unsatisfied with my relationship with matt right now-don't really know how to explain it. c'est la vie.
-my sister learned a little how to fence today at this birthday party she went to today LUCKY! it sounded so cool, i would love to go up against her sometime and just have a heyday wacking her with a lovely saber-lol jk...hmm not really =D
-feel rather feverish right now cause i'm really warm right now-wearing sweats and underarmor stuff right now, maybe thats why. heh |
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[Jan. 21st, 2005|11:29 pm] |
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| | I'm too sexy! ~ heck ya~ | ] |
so glad its the weekend but like most other teenagers at this moment, i'm obviously not looking forward to finals. gah they are going to be sooo tricky especially my english one because, guess what, i'll actually have to think and analyize and write a well developed paper!! so looking forward to doing that first thing on monday morning.
so, had a new first today. i'm such a smart kid that when i was wrecking samie's little rice stress reliever ball that was contained by two lovely purple balloons, i didn't realize i had bitten off a yummy chunk of it (balloon) until i swallowed it and nearly choked to death! [for all the weak of heart and easily upset stomach, read no further unless you too want to be disgusted] haha its not that bad...um so ya samie, i accidently gagged a bit on your front yard cause it got stuck in my tonsils. can feel that stupid piece of balloon going down my throat right now.... meh
watched some of the monk marathon. so mad that sharonah (sp) is no longer on the show *tear but liked the season premier (sp?) i'm so screwed for the french final because there is no multiple choice and i can't even spell in english. |
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[Jan. 16th, 2005|11:30 pm] |
i stare at this screen
and think to myself
what a wonderful life. |
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[Jan. 9th, 2005|12:25 pm] |
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right now when i talk i sound like a man with a frog in his throat that's choking on shards of glass |
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[Jan. 4th, 2005|10:28 pm] |
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ok so i don't know how many of you were out and about today, but for those of you that were you should know exactly what i'm talking about when i say it was freakin' COLD today! had to run in the bitter biting wind for cc ski practice at the track and there was ice on the track! i was freezing for a while but after a couple of laps my arms and legs and entire body just turned into a pleasant numb feeling. ya so feel like complaining more about that cause nothing much interesting happened today. well by the end of that crazy workout i couldn't really funtion my hands.
tried opening the door to get inside the warmth of sma but my fingers couldn't grasp the door handle so they kinda just slid off and someone else had to open the door for me.
that sure hasn't happended to me before! i feel so wierd and numb gah hard to explain. anyway when i got inside though i looked like a lobster cause my whole body was bright pink. and then the inside of me felt warm after abit but my skin was still cold to the touch, i know very odd outbody experience well not really but i'm going to call it that now anyway. i can already tell i'm going to be really sore tomorrow. especially since i had to run 3 blocks to catch my silly bus. whoot!
k bye |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2005|02:59 pm] |
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i hate procrastinating
yet i do it all the time, like right now
i should be working on my novel project but i can't focus and am not getting anywhere
so i just sit here staring at the screen trying with all my might to get my mind moving and thinking and just writing anything down even though its crap. |
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[Jan. 1st, 2005|10:46 pm] |
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| | bouncing around the room-phish | ] |
had a nice new year's eve in manzanita.
finally saw pshyco for the first time, didn't think it was as scary as i had feared-everyone hypes it up so much. but i've seen so many more scarier movies than my parents did when they were kids so something that was really scary to them then usually doesn't have the same effect on teens today. it was still a really good film though.
drove the two hours home from there, was the longest i've drived in one sitting. kinda scary up by the pass, there was some snow and it was rainy but luckily there wasn't much traffic.
saw the tsunami warning signs at the beach, look at them a lot differently now since the recent devastating tsunami on the other side of the world. seems so far away yet its a reality that could just as easily occur on our shores. gah spooky
finished reading two books today that both made me cry a lot. |
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| fire and moving water-two things you never get bored of watching |
[Dec. 24th, 2004|10:20 pm] |
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| | where do all the children play?- cat stevens | ] |
sigh i love staring into a fire, even though if i do it for too long its like staring at the sun, which makes your eyes do funny things, but still there's something about the light of a fire, or just the flame on a candle that is mesmorizing.
rawh it makes me sad when i think about this really really close, best friend i had when i was young and how we've grown so far apart... she came over to dinner with her family tonight and gar it was almost awk. tried talking with her but things just aren't the same anymore. thats mainly started when her dad died, i didn't know how to help her cope... and obviously also because we've both grown a lot but i sometimes wish that life could be a simple as it seemed during my childhood where my imagination thrived and i didn't care about my apperance or what other ppl thought about me etc. is it just me that sometimes feels really old and then in other situations really young?
Happy Holidays,
Merry Kwanza (sry if i spelled it wrong)
Happy Hanukkah (no clue how that one goes lol sry)
Merry Christmas
Hope everyone had a super solstice and whatever random holiday there is that i didn't mention!
In general just hope everyone can enjoy spending time with their families
Lt |
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| fun times talking on IM |
[Dec. 22nd, 2004|10:37 pm] |
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| | the christians and the pagans | ] |
also took job quiz, here are my results:
Artist
* Historian
* Banker
* Novelist
* University Professor
* Photographer
i agree with all of them except have no clue where banker fits in.... (hmm my grandfather was a banker, maybe i have some of his traits) lol i of course don't believe in these quizes but think they are really fun to take and like seeing how "accurate" i think the results are. lol |
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[Dec. 18th, 2004|01:22 am] |
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| | "i'm hanging up my stockings" squirel nut zipper | ] |
want to tell ole santa clause that i believe |
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[Dec. 15th, 2004|11:02 pm] |
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| | we lie alone- davis? | ] |
so i went up to the mountain today -again! really bad bad snow though, it was very icy and hard learning how to skate ski but i liked it cause i go faster than with classic, but skate takes more energy therefore you get tired a lot sooner. tee hee for all you ignorant people, sorry you have no clue what i'm talking about-so if you really want to know-educate yourself!
woh dluow ruoy weiv fo eht dlrow eb tnereffid fi uoy was gnihtyreve sdrawkcab?
hem random me lol sigh "i love the winter weather cause then the two of us can get (be?) together" |
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[Dec. 12th, 2004|04:17 am] |
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| | I'd rather dance with you- Kings of Convience | ] |
so i tried dying my hair black today (with the generous assistance of claire and samie-oh wait and marnie!) but of course when i took the required shower afterwards it all came out! gah it made me so mad, i mean it was only going to last for 6 - 24 (i know huge range) washings anyway but i was really looking forward to being a raven haired beauty like diana from anne of green gables. and everyone said (myself aggreeing) that when they were done and it was "setting" that it really brought out the green in my eyes, and didn't even look that unatural. c'est la vie! ahhghgghhrrhhggh i'm complaining again- well whatever i do what i want (hehe lia heheh). so i'm excited about going up to the mountian tomorrow, even though there isn't nearly as much snow as would be wanted...oh well, we'll make do and hopefully have fun again! better go to sleep since i have to get up at 7:15- that will be interesting since my sleeping pattern has been so odd right now....hem hem. rotfl
laura |
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[Dec. 12th, 2004|01:01 am] |
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i'm free free at last! last week was really stressful, actually got to sleep for ten hours yesterday. yey its finally winter break!
some musings: (grrr wish i knew how to do bullet points oh well)
sometimes i feel so guilty about how fortuante i am, and that i complain about things i should be soooo grateful for, and that the silliest things make me cry....
i wonder what it would be like to live in a third world county, might want to join the peace corps some day to get just a taste of what its like to live in another much less spoiled country then america....like africa or the contient so many people seem to forget about, south america (barely ever mentioned in the news even though there is so much continous turmoil down there)
i have found that i really enjoy history class and learning about the past, but right now the future scares me because america has been a country for such a freakin short time! only about 200 years (right?) while the egyptian civilzation lasted for over 1000 years... eventually, probably not soon at all, but eventually, america's time of superioriority will fade and what will become of this nation?
also just the human race has only been around for less than 4 million years which might seem like a lot but when you think of how long the earth has been around (4.4 billion years ago!) its barely a fraction of the percentage of life on this planet and in such an encredibly short time humans have done so much to harm the environment! (my opion) gah anyway just felt like venting...
sometimes i feel so helpless and insignificant. |
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| haven't done this for a while |
[Nov. 19th, 2004|01:27 am] |
what is love?
can it even possibly be described? can words, pictures, paintings give it true justice?
am i feeling it right now? i can't tell, maybe i am in love then. but do i really love him. everything is so confusing yet simple at the same time, is that possible? i'm so exhilarated right now yet frightned of what might happen in the future; getting hurt...
The Four Noble Truths:
1.) To live is to suffer.
2.) Suffering is caused by desire.
3.) Suffering can be brought to cessation.
4.) The solution to suffering is the Noble Eight-fold Path.
Accepting that there will be suffering in your life is so hard to do. Right now i'm just really HaPpY, but how long will it last?
Laura
I don't expect any answers......... but if you want to say something please do. |
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| i'm back from ods! |
[Nov. 5th, 2004|10:48 pm] |
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omg this past week has been so awesome and defining! sigh i really don't want to go back to school. i'm really tired even though its only 10;50. i'll write more later but i'm too sleepy now. |
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